Why is something as easy as writing down a list so difficult? Tracking what I eat is the hardest part of weight loss for me and I don't know why, but thanks to the fabulous Ms Bitch Cakes and her post on tracking I think I understand myself a little better now.

Here are some parts of Sheryl's post that really made me look at myself and admit to myself the reason why I am so bad at tracking. It is good to know that I am not the only one who really struggles with this part of the journey.

"When I'm not tracking, I'm really not taking care of myself. I'm not putting myself first. I'm not making my health a priority. And I'm not being good to myself......Not tracking for me means not monitoring my behaviors and not facing and being accountable for my choices."

".....I'll be off to a great start, having tracked my breakfast, snacks and lunch but then do something crazy like eat 22 PointsPlus worth of what I call "vegan junk food".... not track them and then get home and not track dinner. Or whatever else I eat from that point forward."

THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I DO!!! - Oh my goodness, I absolutely love this woman. I love her experience with weight loss and I love her courage to admit to herself (and followers) how she is feeling and what she is going through. Most of all though, I love that Sheryl is willing to share her blog and insight with anyone who chooses to listen, well read, like me and I love how I always learn something from it that will help me succeed on my journey.

More from BC,

"How is *not* tracking helping me? It's simply not. It's just keeping me in denial and often subtly encouraging me to do it again. And that's where one not-so-great choice can lead to another and another and another until actual weight gain occurs."

"........Writing down everything I choose to ingest. They're my choices, the least I can do is be accountable for them in eTools."

Bitch Cakes recently ran in her 4th qualifier for her 2012 NYC Marathon. It was the Colon Cancer challenge 4 mile Run in Central Park.

I just love the positive nature of BC's blog. She always tries to keep it as positive as possible, (even if her run/day wasn't as good as she had planned), which is something I am endeavouring to do as well. I know we all have bad days and I know that sometimes it shows on our blogs, but I just love the optimistic tone of Bitch Cakes' blogs and posts.

At the end of her post Sheryl wrote a list of lessons she had learned from this particular run. The title of the list in itself is great - "Lessons learned from this run? (Remember, it's FEEDBACK, not failure!)" This is something I have to remember more - feedback NOT failure! It is something I can really relate to - I need to be kinder to myself and import some more positive feedback into my life.

Out of the 8 points on the list, the last one just really resembles Bitch Cakes affirmative and encouraging behaviours - I love it!

• "And yes, keep the promise to myself that I will never, ever give up. Just keep going. No matter how long it takes or what obstacles I encounter!"

These are the sort of promises I need to make with myself and KEEP them. Thanks again Sheryl. Even though we have never met in person and probably never will, I just want to thank you sooooo much for sharing your amazing life with me (and everyone else). I really do feel privileged to be able to read along and follow your successes.

BC wrote this about what inspires and motivates her to continue on her journey!

"......I think the most important things to remember are:

1. This is for life. Your life. Literally. Not just this meal/this week/today - but forever. You have to eat and move till your dying day - why not choose more healthfully so you will feel better, be healthier and look better?"

I have chosen this quote because the "feminine figure" that BC has been rewarded with is exactly what I want and her "healthy decisions" will keep reminding me what I have to do to get it!

"I currently look better than I ever thought possible and it's mostly due to making as many good healthy decisions as possible - eating good and real food, moving my body, challenging myself, making myself and my health a priority, telling myself I will never give up - and I've been rewarded with a fantastic, healthy, gorgeous, feminine figure........I know some of it is luck (genetics) but the rest of it is all my choices, all my hard work over the years that added up resulting in the woman I am today. That's such a fantastic feeling, and a priceless gift I've given myself - not only being healthy, but finally being able to love and appreciate my body."

BC wrote this on a post about her recovery from a 4 day binge!

Today I did what I always tell you guys to do: Forgave myself, learned from it and moved on. I say that all the time and I want you all to realize that I honestly believe in it. I believe in what I tell you. I don't just write these things, I actually live them and they are what keep me going! They are how I am still here, why I am still a success and what I will use to keep me from ever getting back to 208 pounds.

It's like I try to remind you often: It doesn't matter how many times you fall down. You WILL fall down. Sometimes for a longer period, sometimes harder and further, and sometimes worse than others. All that matters is that you get back up. As quickly as possibly. Continue the journey. You may be a step or two back from where you were but how many steps back are you going to be if you don't get up at all?

I pulled this quote from BC's Empire State Building stair climb post.

"........when you're in the stairwell, you don't see the whole thing. You only see what's directly in front of you. And at that point, you're just putting one foot in front of another. You won't see the enormity of what you're doing as you're doing it. You just do it. You Just. Keep. Going. I think this is a great analogy for the entire weight loss journey, or anything you want to do in life. Yes, you have the end goal in mind (in this case, the observation deck/finish line, but this could also be your goal weight or any other goal you have), but you don't let yourself get freaked out about that, or scared at how far away that end goal might be. You just tell yourself you're going to do what you need to do right now and take it (literally, in this case) one step at a time. And whether you're climbing 85 flights of stairs, running 26.2 miles or losing 100 pounds, you'll get there - when you get there. It takes as long as it takes. Just never, ever give up."